For someone who writes for a living I am struggling to find the words to describe the love and support that has showered me and my family over the past week.
A while ago two of my beautiful school mum friends invited me for a coffee.
Nothing unusual about that you would think! That was until they told me about their idea to hold a High Tea to help support us as we moved forward from chemo to surgery, radiotherapy and beyond.
I didn’t know what to think or say. Why would people I had only met less than 18 months earlier want to do this for us? Why would people want to come?
There were so many unanswered questions going around in my head from the time they proposed the idea to the time I walked into the school hall last Saturday and saw the incredible work they had put in in such a short amount of time to help us on this rocky road.
There were candles, lanterns, macarons, sandwiches, pretty tea pots and of course champagne!
There were people — a lot of them — friends from my teenage years, friends I have only made in the past 18 months, family and even some people I had never met. It was the most amazing show of support and love I have ever been a part of.
We laughed as people won raffle prizes, bought things at the silent auction like tickets to see Ed Sheeran and watched as I drew my sister-in-law’s ticket out to win first prize in the raffle. We cried as these amazing people made their way over to me for some of the most comforting hugs I’ve ever had in my life to let me know they were there for us as a family in so many ways.
It was all to help support us beyond tomorrow!
Tomorrow — the day when I face surgery for the first time under a general anesthetic.
Tomorrow — the day I take the next step in clearing my body of cancer.
Tomorrow — the day I am dreading as I face the reality of having a mastectomy and waking up without my right boob
Tomorrow — the day I am hoping won’t come if I stay awake.
I’m sitting here adding music and podcasts onto my phone hoping they will help me get through the next couple of days.
If I stay awake will tomorrow come?